you keep your hair tie at the small of your wrist i’m not convinced that you’re not ready for this you’re just depressed, you’ve worked with less you are alive for a long long time i’ve never met a girl with heart as heavy as you have i haven’t shoulders on which i could carry that did i fail before i tried? i was so sure that i had seen it all from one side i moved out of the home where we shared a bed i closed my heart you let yours go to your head you call me late, i’m out of state i haven’t cried in a long long time i’ve never met a girl with kiss as heavy as yours is haven’t the mouth upon which i could carry it did i fail before i tried i was so sure that i had seen it all from your side

no respite, no relief, no confiding in a friend cuz you know what you did and you'll try to never do it again you’re a good partner and a bad doctor, oh i know but devotion alone will only hold you under so you hesitate cuz only with our limits removed can we ever know true defeat there’s something where there should be nothing, it tricks your focus and your only clear view’s atop the hill you keep rolling this boulder up nothing wrong with being nobody’s wild night or best friend or first love or none the above there’s no right thing so now i hesitate cuz only with our limits removed can we ever know true defeat

don't wanna be someone who calms your pretty nerves love i'm only so much and it's less than you deserve love i'm not equipped and i don't want to lead you on like when you're hovered in the kitchen when it's light out you're heavy searching for another but i'm gone now a thousand arguments play out behind my eyes you wring your weathered hands and i don’t move mine as if there were another lesson we could learn here the moments over and the moral yet is unclear for what it's worth you always leave me feeling floored (let’s hold out) so maybe we could last a month if we're not too loud and then another week if we can keep our voices down make a decision when we both can find the words trying to write the kind of future that concerns you but you’re in bed until someone else overturns you feels like i haven’t seen you leave your room in weeks can’t take another day if you won’t say a word now when i get home you’re steady staring at the door now so i give up and take a breath and go to sleep you run yourself around and i don’t move (you wring your weathered hands and i don’t move mine) could never be the one to calm your pretty nerves love i'm only so much and it's less than you deserve love i'm not equipped and i don't wanna leave you torn (you run yourself around and i don’t move) so when you're hovered in the kitchen in the low light won’t see me searching for another for a long time for what it’s worth you always leave me feeling floored

captive, no enjoyment only empathy, no empty things from me but i'm pinned down by thoughts of quilted metal
can you recall the moment that you lost control wayward, but i know you and entropy is all we ever dreaded, a destroyer but we don’t know what that really means, do we i’m pinned down by thoughts of quilted metal can you recall the moment that you lost control static, no enjoyment but empathy encompasses you now, don’t be despondent cuz entropy don’t mean a thing to me i’ll help you don your face it’s easier this way i'm just as scared as you to let my teeth be gray i'll take any excuse to hide away forfeit every other day with no replay get out of bed i said i won't say it again i need another head to share this weight there’s no brakes there’s no grace there’s no grace i'll help you don your face i'll get mine after this i'm just as scared of you as every living thing i step into the red self conscious shaking off the dread to “get innocuous!” this feels like a dream my legs refuse to move and i strain to breathe yeah it feels like a dream everything exactly as it seems everything is exactly as it seems i dare my future self to be ashamed of me (i dare my self to be of me) i dare my future self to try to press delete (my self to be ending)